Still here. Still dark. Still don’t want to move. My body aches. My eyes are burning. My tears fall on and off. Head hurts from crying. I got up to get a drink of water. Thats all I can do to fight right now. So tired. So exhausted. Feeling weak. Why can’t I beat this ? I thought i was strong. I know i am strong. Why do I feel like I’m losing?
My poor family. They don’t deserve this. What happened to me? I had so much energy. I laughed, I lit up roooms, art and craft projects, Gourmet meals. Now I can’t crawl out if bed. I f#/^&ing hate this disorder. I want to be numb.