Still here

Still here. Still dark. Still don’t want to move. My body aches.  My eyes are burning.  My tears fall on  and off. Head hurts from crying.  I got up to get a drink of water. Thats all I can do to fight right now. So tired. So exhausted. Feeling weak.  Why can’t I beat this ? I thought i was strong. I know i am strong.  Why do I feel like I’m losing?

My poor family.  They don’t deserve this.  What happened to me? I had so much energy.  I laughed, I lit up roooms, art and craft projects, Gourmet meals.  Now I can’t crawl out if bed.  I f#/^&ing hate this disorder. I want to be numb.


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