What’s Wrong?

“What’s wrong?” seems like a question that you’d want to hear from your loved ones if you were feeling down, right?  It means they care about you and have noticed that something seems off.  Unfortunately, this empathetic and seemingly simple question can create a “HULK SMASH” reaction from me.  Fragile items beware. Since I was…

Garden-Variety Humdrum

If I could feed myself full of drugs with no consequences, I would be so high right now.  Honestly, I’d be so high most of the time. I feel like mania sets you up for wanting to experience life in an altered state.  The colors are brighter, you’re more confident than ever, your mind comes…

2 Pairs of Shoes

Since she was 17, she’s had two pairs of shoes. She’s never had the chance to choose which pair to wear or when they’d come on and off. Sometimes, no matter which pair she wears, they get so tight that they form indentations on her skin. The first pair of shoes have walked miles and…

Snap Out Of It!

Do you ever question your illness?  Blame yourself?  Think that you should be able to fight harder or that you just need to toughen up and be positive, snap out of it? I do. All of these conversations about what we should be doing to get well…they pile up and create a sense of responsibility…

Closed for Repairs

  Like the bridges we cross, occasionally we must allow time for repairs. On the journey to beautiful destinations, cracks and imperfections appear. Stop to mend the tears and expect a detour or two.     – The Owl

Security Blankets

These are things that bring me comfort while I’m depressed or things that I choose to avoid so I can continue being wrapped in my security blanket. When it gets really bad, it’s interesting how the things that can bring me comfort are the things I tend to push away. What are your Security Blankets?…

A Successful Life with Bipolar

I’m on a new mission.  At least for today.  Who knows how long this idea will last, but for today, I’m on a new mission. I want to find every person living a successful life that has bipolar. What defines success?  I guess that is different for everyone, mental illness or not. I’m looking for…