Faith at the bottom of the mountain

Faith is a wonderous thing. When you find it, hold tight and embrace it for it is a beautiful treasure. In darkness, it will shine. In thirst, your cup shall be filled. You’ll never come across anything so precious and magical as faith. When you lose faith, seek it out, search for it as if…

Gone Girl

A note from over a year ago that reminds me to be grateful for today. Today, I’m stable. Today, I am blessed. Today, I’m on a smooth patch of a sometimes treacherous path. So, if you’re in the darkness today, please know that it will get brighter. Look for the cracks in the foundation where…

Lost at Sea

Sleep is such a distant and foreign land when I find myself lost at Sea. My past visits me. She’s here to remind me that I am an expert at falling apart. With album in hand, she shows me the same picture, page after page. Changing expressions and different locations, but always the same out…

Lord, hear my prayer

My prayer remains the same I only want to hear you, Lord My prayer remains the same I only want to see you, Lord My heart is vacant Waiting for you to move in My soul is crying out Waiting for you to wipe a tear My hands have turned so cold Alienated from your…

Depression.

A few days in the heat, the suns rays gently smoothing a golden glow on to my skin. Blue sky surrounding each cotton candy cloud as I coast on the desert highway. No traffic lights in sight, only open road and infinite opportunity ahead. Crash Tossed into a cold where bones don’t chill, they shatter.…

Career Path after Mental Health Crisis

Who can relate?  I’d love to hear from you!  Please comment with your experience!  Here’s mine… Prior to 2013, my plans were to continue moving up the career ladder within the business banking division of the large financial institution I had worked in for 7 years.  I was making great money, working really hard, and…

What’s Wrong?

“What’s wrong?” seems like a question that you’d want to hear from your loved ones if you were feeling down, right? It means they care about you and have noticed that something seems off. Unfortunately, this empathetic and seemingly simple question can create a “HULK SMASH” reaction from me. Fragile items beware. Since I was…

Garden-Variety Humdrum

If I could feed myself full of drugs with no consequences, I would be so high right now. Honestly, I’d be so high most of the time. I feel like mania sets you up for wanting to experience life in an altered state. The colors are brighter, you’re more confident than ever, your mind comes…