I can’t believe how long it took me to finally open up about my childhood. It was extremely difficult to publish my last post. I hesitated over and over. It dawned on me as I hit the publish button… I didn’t write about cancer, I wrote about my father. One of the hardest things I’ve…
I am so angry at bipolar. I am in the pity stage again. I thought I was on a roll. I thought I was learning how to live with this disorder. In a way, I see that I had progress, but now I’m close to where I started. I had my first surgery to get…
I am sorry that its been so long since my last post. It has been a roller coaster since March. As of today, Doc wants to try wellebutrin (sp?). So, here we go. I took myself off lemectal and since last week, have only been on prozac. I’m acting like a rebellious teen with all…
It’s like I’m walking through a forest. It’s dark. There is a path that starts and stops. When I’m on the path, I feel okay. I feel cautious. I’m still afraid. The path gives me a bit of hope that I’ll find my destination in the dark. When I lose the path, I am frightened.…
So I abruptly stopped taking lemectol the other day and I had been feeling well. I started reading about the dangers of not weaning off the medication so I decreased my dosage and began taking it again. I felt awful today. I was confused, dizzy, off balance, slurred speech, and I’m still not feeling normal.…
Growing up, my father had always wanted me to be a weather gal. Although I never went to school to be a meteorologist, I sure do wish I could predict the weather. I also wish I could predict tomorrow. I’ve never had more clarity when it comes to priorities, morals, and values than I do…
Some people still don’t get it. I don’t wake up and say that my life sucks and decide to be sad, scared, forgetful, or clumsy. I’m a good person. I have always cared for people and in my heart, have tried to do the right thing. I’ve been through a lot in my 32 years…
Wow. I have been feeling like I was the drunk girl at the bar last night, this week. The one that danced on tables, puked inside of her friends coach purse, fell into the hot bouncer and apologized as she blew puke breath in his face. I do not believe I’ve ever actually been “that…
Is it just me or does the world seem to be getting sliced lately? Cut the tension with a knife. Whether its weather, politics, religion or violence, there is an enormous amount of negativity. I’m not a psychic but I feel like there is a shake up. The Sochi threats, school shootings, Missile Tests, the…
The first day I rose from the ashes of my 60 days of darkness, it was magical. Most of the dark disappeared on September 30, 2013 but if you’re a follower of my blog, you’ll see that I still have a lot of therapy needed. There is still some breakage in this short glass of…
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